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Spider

All of my pain is a spider
I’ve learned not to crush
with the heel of my shoe

but to guide with a page
of my journal
into an empty glass.

I ask questions about
its life, its purpose
as I walk careful

out to the garden and rest
it down on the earth.
My pain—how happy

it is to leave me
whenever I treat it
kind.

Notes

Following the survival strategy of "Instead of Depression," Gibson’s "Spider" directly confronts our internal pain and sorrow, personifying a heavy, creeping grief as a small, fragile houseguest. It beautifully serves July's theme of lightness by demonstrating that we don't have to violently crush or run away from our darkest feelings; instead, we can choose to sit quietly alongside them. By defusing the terrifying weight of suffering through a gentle, almost tender truce, the poem reminds us that sorrow loses its paralyzing power the moment we stop fighting it and allow it to simply exist. . #summer #pain #poetry #sorrow #moving

About the author

Andrea Gibson

Andrea Faye Gibson was an American poet and activist. Their poetry focused on gender norms, politics, social justice, LGBTQ topics, life, and mortality. Gibson was appointed as the Poet Laureate of Colorado in 2023.